A lot came up! I discovered how mixed my feelings are about humanity, how these attachments and aversions interfere with my serving humanity wholeheartedly. It seems that I have been still making up my mind about us as a species!
So, I did lots of releasing around this topic and then went to mind my grandchild Olivia for the day.
As i walked with Olivia and Harry the dog on that lovely afternoon, I was aware that the three of us walking together down a country lane looked idyllic, on the outside. I even sensed others passing by seeing us that way. Yet I was uncomfortable inside. Fear kept coming up for no apparent outer reason. I kept welcoming it and letting it go - and noticed I was subtly annoyed with myself for having the fear. I let that go a few times too. Then I noticed resistance arising to many things I saw - junk, litter, weeds and so on. I was very tuned into ugliness!
I kept releasing..... and something shifted. Suddenly I was able to welcome everything as it was in the moment, even the rubbish. I saw the rubbish as no different from the toys that Olivia litters the house with. Just as I can easily see beauty in her play and in the household disorder it creates, in that moment I could see beauty even in the rubbish and the weeds. In that instant I saw that beauty is everywhere, even in terrible circumstances. Beauty is in the way things are.
So many artists have shown us this and have opened our eyes to different forms of beauty. Often we use our concept of beauty to define other things as ugliness and to block out our seeing of them. When we open to what is, we can see the beauty in everything. I could see in that sublime moment that people who litter are simply where they are, having not yet grown into the understanding that order serves humanity; having not yet progressed to valuing serving humanity in that way. I was totally free of blame for anyone who littered, or who might have had the responsibility to teach others not to litter, and had not yet succeeded in that. I was completely steady and content in the truth that all these "not yet reached understandings" are simply that. My own and theirs – we have grown as far as we have, that’s all there is to it. It felt exquisite to be surrounded by unlimited forms of beauty, to be surrounded totally by beauty. I felt light and strong - and effortlessly picked up some litter!